I have just got in, and the kitchen is clean, the laundry is on, the recycling has been sorted! And it wasn't the pixies or the kids.
This is a very rare occasion, but I have expressed my appreciation
It sure makes a nice change

If the kids were a bit older who would I choose?
If he could leave his wife, who would I choose?

Do I stay with my husband of 25 years,
who never wants to make love,
who doesn't care how he looks,
who is always scratching at skin not that clean?
Okay he can cook, and change the car tyres
he loves me as well, in his own little way,
even if he can't show it from day to day.
But he brings out the worst in me.

Or do I take a chance with a man,
who adores every inch,
whose idea of heaven is giving me what I want.
Whether it is sex, oral or straight,
or a new leather jacket,
or dinner for two.
He can cook and he can clean,
he dresses stylishly and is not mean,
he is generous and kind,
and has great staying power,
and brings out the best in me.

The choice is pretty easy when I put it like thatD

Of course we are not so far. His wife is recovering, he cannot leave her. One day she will come out of Rehab, and he will stay with her, cos he is that sort of guy. But I will soon be free to decide. Once my youngest is older, maybe 4 years time, I could leave, and be like pollygarter, or maybe find another man who will love me as much as Rolf does. 4 years is really not that long
Then I will be at a golden birthday, maybe halfway through my life. Better not waste it.

And having just come back from 2 days with him, I realise that using my youngest as an excuse to stay with my husband, is just that, an excuse. I could take her with me, but only if I was moving in with R. I work far too many hours and travel too much for anything else to work. Of course, I will not tell R this, but it is a stage I have reached. Nearly a year together, and I am much clearer as to what could be, if only.........