Okay, I admit it, sex does not cure colds. In fact, it brought my cold out with a vengence! And I am still suffering.

But monday evening itself was fantastic. Not kissing was totally forgotten from the moment I got there. My cold was totally surpressed by all those throat losenges, so I had energy. The sex was wonderful, as ever. I had multiple orgasms and I just let them come. Every time we meet it is better and better. We know each other so well, and R so wants to pleasure me, and we both want it so much, it feels just like this is how it should be.
And I felt truly happy. Walking up the hill to the nest (for nests are always in high places) the sun was shining, the birds singing, and I was so happy. Lieing in his arms it felt so right. When we stopped to refuel on food he had thoughtfully bought along, I was so bubbly. I could not stop talking and laughing. I was totally high and yet totally me. Even better he loves me for it, he loves me however I am

We only had a few hours together, but they were wonderful, and we walked together down the hill to catch our trains in opposite directions, and even though I didn't want to leave him, it was okay. I know we will see each other soon. In fact we have a 2 days trip planned to a city in Germany, in less than 2 weeks now
That will be fantastic. We haven't been able to do an overnight together since his trip away in March, as his son is showing signs of suspicion and checking where he is going etc. But a business trip to this particular city is not unusual, so he will not suspect anything.

My mind was a whirl again I suppose because I see the contrast so clearly, between how I am with R, and how I feel when I am with my husband. It is not that I dislike my husband, but I no longer love him as I should. His touch makes me recoil slightly, which I try to disguise. He gets annoyed if I am too bouncy or exhuberant, and of course the sex is just something I put up with on those rare occasions he wants to. I am happy at home, but not truly happy as when I am with R.
But I am happy enough, so I stay. And R cannot be free, so he stays, and i just hope we have our nest and each other for a long time to come.