Today it is M's birthday. He was my first lover, so this post is a birthday tribute to him

Happy birthday darling
I still think of you like that
I hope you have a great day, and I know you are where you want to be, and very happy there.
I am happy for you.

I thank you once again for all you taught me
I am glad we remain friends
I miss you still and probably always will
but I wouldn't change anything, except maybe the bit where you moved away

I thank you for your generosity in the past,
and your generosity now in being happy for me with my new lover

love
S

Although my husband is not a particularly tall guy, I have always thought he was well endowed.
Sometimes a bit too well endowed, as I can feel it ramming me inside!!!

so today I measured his penis in the non-erect state. 13cm's!!!

Just looked up the average and this is what it says:
"A non-erect penis usually measures between 8.5cm and 10.5cm (3-4 inches) from tip to base."

"The man whose non-erect penis is on the largish size will probably manage about a 75 per cent increase."

so let me see 13 * 1.75 = 22.75cms

"Even when aroused, a woman's vagina usually extends only to a length of about 10cm "
"The vagina has the most remarkable capacity for lengthening if something is introduced into it gradually.

So the exceptional man whose erect penis is eight inches long can still make love to any woman, providing he excites her properly and introduces his organ very slowly. If he does this, her vagina will lengthen by 150 or 200 per cent to accommodate him."

still sounds a bit tight to me, no wonder it can be damn uncomfortable sometimes, especially as he never excites me properly.

I must admit that none of my lovers have ever been so well endowed, but then I have decided that size does not matter, it is how you use it that counts

Today and yesterday I have been helping out at our Church Christmas bazaar.
Today, R showed up to surprise me.

it is a 240km round trip and we are already seeing each other on Monday,

and as I was helping out he did not know if I would be really busy. As it was, i wasn't, so could spend about an hour with him

and then he left again

It must be loveD

and that surprise visit is better than any present he could buy me.

Following my present dilemma earlier, I decided to cheer myself up checking out what sex shops there are near our love nest. I discovered there aren't any!!!
actually, thinking about it, I spotted one from the motorway, so I must have been searching under the wrong thing. That is the problem sometime trying to think up the correct German term for what I am looking for.

Anyway, instead I went on the site of a sex shop I had read about in the paper that is for women. They had a selection of DVD's, which I then checked out on amazon (where they were MUCH cheaper). So i ordered a porn DVD - my first ever! and I ordered a pearl string from this sex shop.
They will be delivered to a special postal box I have set up.
They will be a nice surprise for R, so he will get a gift after all, unless he wants to pay the bill, and then I will get a gift too
Thing is I am not sure if the pearl string is going to turn me on with the sensations, or turn him on. Advice welcome from any ladies out there who know.
And for him, the bow he mentioned reminded me of a penis ring. I know Geeforce wrote about them once, but it was a lot of German to plough through, so if any of you guys can tell me what the benefits of them are - in simple English, I will be very grateful

and if it embarrassing, then please send me a pm - although that is an option for friends only

My mascara is a little smudged this afternoon. I have been emailing with R about Christmas gifts. When we first started dating, I told him no gifts. This was because M had been so generous with gifts that I now find I can not look at any of them without becoming sentimental. So I reckoned no gifts, no reminders when it is all over - totally fatalistic of me, but it will be over one day.
The thing is that my husband is useless at buying me gifts, leaving it always to the last minute, putting no thought into it, or not bothering at all. So I got to thinking that actually I would quite like a Christmas Gift from R, just to see if he puts some thought into it, and what he gets me. A test if you like.
So I backtracked on the no gifts and told him I would quite like to exchange gifts for Christmas. But of course he is totally behind with everything at the moment, with his wife still being in the coma, and so totally stressed out with all he has to do and prepare for Christmas, which is anyway going to be weird for him this year.
So i was adding to his stress, and today I realised that and backtracked again. I told him, no worries, he didn't have to get me anything, we would just do something special together.
It isn't like i need a gift from him to prove he loves me, and it was unfair of me to expect him to do something because of the failings of my husband.
So we are agreed, yet I still find the tears are falling, and I really am not sure why, and I sure am not going to tell him.

Well Steve has one, so I have one too now.

I created myself a minor superhero on the site
http://www.ugo.com/channels/comics/heroMachine2/heromachine2.asp

it is a cool site, all for free, you can create a character, include colours and background, then printscreen it to word, copy into a photo processing program and cut it out to a jpg. Sounds complicated but isn't

tell me what you think, I could always return to the eye again.

from the Durex Global Sexual wellbeing survey 2007/8 (www.durex.com)

why do I keep getting invitations from people blogging in Spanish? Just received my second invite, this time from a manuelmadrid, who I managed to track down on the Spanish site.
He has 382 friends, and all his posts are identical, advertising his electrical services

I said no of course

so for any other Spanish writers thinking of issuing an invite:

No gracias. No entiendo lo suficiente español para leer un blog de español.

Adios Amigos

well, 3 days since I last posted, and KandMoist dared to suggest I never do any work! Ah ha. And note, it is evening, I am at home, after a hard day at the office.
Actually, it was not so hard, this morning was a seminar, and this afternoon just seemed a string of short meetings until I could go home.
It is so cold here now. We have lots of snow, and it is still falling.
We are supposed to have winter tyres here to drive on snow, otherwise I think there is an insurance problem if I have an accident. Anyway we always wait for the snow before even thinking about changing tyres, and so now the garages are full of all the other people who also wait for the first snowfall, and I can't take the car out. Good job we have a train at the end of the street.

Anyway, another reason I haven't posted is that yesterday I was with R in Ikea, buying all we need for the love nest. The forecast was snow - all day! We needed my car to transport the stuff from Ikea ( not much fits in a Jaguar unfortunately).
Our love nest is up a hill. But God was smiling. On Tuesday night I drove up in the pouring rain, but no snow. On Wednesday morning it was snowing, but only light. The drive to Ikea was clear, and back again, and back again later to dump the packaging.
Okay, by the time I got home there was rather more of the white stuff, but the forecast was definitely wrong.

So we kitted out the apartment for a bargain price. R couldn't believe how cheap Ikea is. Here is a man for whom money is not a problem, and he would spend what we spent kitting out the apartment on 1 armchair and then some I think.
So he was happy, even assembling it, and I was happy.
We christened the Poang chair - i gave him a blow job on it, just the right position if I am on the floor, then we christened the dining table, that was just the right position as well Then we did it all again on the inflatable bed.
The real bed is being delivered next Tuesday (there is a limit as to how much one can fit in an estate car). The delivery men have given us a window of between 8 and 12am! Means I have to get the 6.45 train to get there in time
But then, once it is assembled, we can christen that as well.
I am a very happy bunny.
Tomorrow I may have to do some more work - cos I do sometimes

I seem to have somewhat of a cough and cold, so I have declared myself too sick to go to work today. I am hardly ever off sick, so it is about time I looked out for myself.
The fact that I want to be well enough to spend tomorrow night at the love nest and Wed in Ikea has nothing to do with it
I just hope R has not got my cold though, although he doesn't seem to get ill often. We did meet at the nest yesterday though for a quick and fulfilling 2 hours, but I did manage to avoid coughing on him.
He has a theory that orgasms shorten the length of a cold, so i am willing to try that treatment. it didn't work yesterday though, so I obviously urgently need a repeat course of treatment.
So anyway, today, i will catch up on blogs, and what my buddies have been doing, maybe do some light cleaning, and lie down on my bed a lot and fantasize.
much better than work

Not in the mood for work, that is because I am in the mood for love. I was on an internet auction site this morning - we all need a break from work now and then, - and found some sexy outfits for dressing up in. I ordered a maids outfit, plus a long slinky number - to replace the glitter number, and a little santa body and hat. Just looking at the pictures got my imagination going, and now I am turned on with anticipation.
R is not all that used to role playing, but he is willing to try. He promised to be very stern and rigid when we play maid and master, - rigid sounds good to me
All the outfits will be a surprise, and now that we have the lovenest I can keep a box of such goodies there.

Everything is coming together for it. I got a TV and DVD player off an auction site the other day, for about €55, and have been buying lots of little things we need for the first night there. Then we will buy the big things together. R took a case load of stuff over yesterday, and I will fill my car on Sunday and meet him there for 2 hours.
Shame it can't be longer, but I still have next week to look forward to.

So little wonder I am not in the mood for work, and it is Friday after all.

 Great news, R just texted. He has the key to the love nest- He has placed a air bed there already.  OMG! i can hardly believe it

So next Wed we go shopping for what we really need, and can spend the night there on Tuesday next week already, maybe meet Sunday there as well.

There is also good news with his wife as well. Hardly believable, but she has pulled through again, so he didn't have to make any difficult decisions this time. Of course she has not woken up,  so we don't know what damage has been caused, but it looks better than it did on Saturday.

Poor R was so down then, I could read it in his emails. There was no joy there at all, but today, it is all different again. I hope it lasts this time, as it is a bit of a roller coaster of emotions for him at present.

So, i am going to cancel the hotel we had booked for next Tuesday night. I would much rather spend the money on furniture for the love nest and camp out on the airbed for a while

cheers all

Today I went to the hairdressers, and love what he has done. Took 10 years of me
Then I went into town and met my eldest. had lunch, looked in some stores, and saw some lovely things for the love nest, but resisted buying them, better wait until we have it.
Then me and eldest toiled around town for the afternoon using buses and trams to check out various offices where she is going for interviews soon.
By the time we got home by train, I was feeling rather wacked

Found the cat had left one of her delightful visiting cards in the bathroom for me, no one had loaded the dishwasher or cleaned up, so had to set to cleaning up and around.
And Hubby? Well he had been on the PC all day apparently, and didn't see what was wrong with that, and then he had gone grocery shopping in the hour before they shut.
Now, he is out running, in the dark. R reckons (like Gordon as well) that he is not running. Maybe being a peeping tom somewhere, or meeting someone.
I am timing him these days, and monitoring if he has broken into a sweat at all

We both went to see a prospective love nest this afternoon. It is nearly perfect. Well, very small (31m2) but space for what we need, and in a lovely part of town near woodlands.
R chatted away to the caretaker who showed us it, so the caretaker was happy, then he rang the agent and sweet talked him too! They were on for ages.
So I think it could well be ours.
R is in sales, and says he knows what people want to hear! I think I need to watch him

I really hope we get it, and it is available now, it stands empty. And Gordon on his thewhitesettler blog has given me the perfect Christmas present of a pink love nest, so now I know how to decorate it. Okay, minus the spiral staircase and view of the ocean, but it gives me ideas.

so i shall have a happy weekend looking through the ikea catalogue