I have just had a lovely chat with R on the phone. He is coping pretty well with what is going on, although as he says, he needs to be strong for all those that are relying on him.

This morning we had exchanged a fair few emails. We always try to be totally honest with each other, especially as we are not being honest with others. So today we discussed by email whether things will change or not. He had initially written that our relationship would not change, so I wrote back with some doubts. And he didn't patronise or dismiss them, he acknowledged the truth in the situation, and that things might change. So that was good, I hate it when guys won't discuss things properly because they don't want to acknowledge situations. Mark, that was your one fault if you are reading this
And then I texted him that I have given up with my lovers phone - this was a mobile I used just for lovers, then I could control when it was on, and where, as a security precaution. Trouble is the battery kept running down quickly, it was such a basic phone it drove me mad, and he was the only one that I was using it with. So I decided to stick to my main phone, and just make sure I clear all evidence.
He wrote back that he was so happy about that, as he had never liked the lovers phone. When quizzed it turned out that he assummed I was communicating with other people on it, and it made him uncomfortable. So I could put his mind at rest about that as well, and reassure him that he is the only one for me.
So thank goodness for that He should have told me before it bothered him, then i would have turned it off ages ago, but still, at least I know now.
He doesn't mind about my blog though, even though I haven't given him the link. And I still haven't decided if I will. As Sienna probably has found, having lovers read all your thoughts is not necessarily a good idea.